Thursday, November 22, 2018
Today, I planned to make a Thanksgiving dinner for my family. We don't have a lot of money because I am currently in college full time and we live off of my husband's disability which isn't much in its self. However, I planned a special dinner. It had to be tweaked because Tatty was coming home from college and she is now a vegan due to food allergies. It was somewhat difficult to do. I was able to pull it off though. One of the reason's why she is a vegan is because she is very allergic to garlic. I was able to make our turkey today without garlic just so that she could eat it. She is allergic to milk but that didn't stop us from making mashed potatoes, sweet potato casserole, cornbread stuffing, cheesecake, and pumpkin pie. I had to omit the cinnamon because she is allergic to that too but it really didn't matter. Nobody noticed. The turn out for our dinner was amazing. The turkey was so delicious and the sides were just scrumptious! I can't wait to try the real part of the pies.
Today, I am thankful that I could make a full meal for my family and not have to worry how much it would cost. I'm thankful for certain grocery stores that brought down the price of their vegetables and turkey's to $.39 a pound. I'm thankful that my whole family is under the same roof right now. I'm thankful that they are all getting along. I'm thankful that I have a bed to sleep in and a roof over our heads. I'm also thankful that I was able to facetime my mom, dad, and sisters while cooking this morning. That was especially special to me.
Finally, I am thankful that I am getting baptized on Saturday by our Children's Youth Pastor. I am very much looking forward to this. I know I'm ready. God told me so.
I'm also thankful for you who read my blog, even when the posts are far and few between.
Have a Happy Thanksgiving and a safe Black Friday.
Tuesday, November 13, 2018
There are many things that I'm thankful about. I'm thankful that we have a home where we ha e raised our three kids. I'm thankful for the animals in our home that bring a smile to our faces everyday. I'm thankful that I have a loving husband who despite his own struggles in life, loves me I conditionally and shows me that everyday.
I'm thankful that I can go back to college to attain a Medical Assistant degree. I'm thankful for the support I have to do this.
Most of all, I'm thankful for God who has guided me to and through this so far. I'm Thankful that he whispered his journey in my ear. I'm thankful that he has pro ides for our family when we didn't know where the money for our next meal was going to come from or how to pay our bills or how to pay for gas for our car. I'm thankful for the love he brings to my heart each and every day.
What are you thankful for today?
Monday, August 6, 2018
This year, we have found the cook stove of my dreams. I am so excited to bring this stove in our house. Currently, it is sitting in our garage because it is 90 degrees out and we don't have the space for it yet. So we are working on the space to make for it and prepare our house for winter. One of the reasons why I am so excited is because it can be hooked up to a hot water heater and heat the hot water in our house instead of having to use oil. It is also newer and more efficient. I am so excited. I've never been this excited for winter or fall for that matter. Here's to the new stove. Here's to better efficiency.
Monday, April 16, 2018
I've been struggling with myself a lot. My mind has not been set at ease. I've been feeling empty. I've felt like I didn't want to get out of bed in the morning. I've cried numerous times in a day. Some days, I don't even know why I'm doing it. I just break down and cry. I find myself starting out the window or off somewhere else when I'm not at work. Sometimes I find myself staring at the computer screen at work, not realizing just how long it was.
I feel numb.
About a month ago, my uncle died from liver failure. He was an amazing man. He was a figure of the community. He was a justice of the peace, a notory public. When my husband and I got married again in 2016, he performed our wedding. I loved my uncle so much. I just fear that I didn't tell him that enough.
I think that this is part of why I feel the way I feel. I come from a big family. Since my grandmother died 9 years ago, it seems like we don't really do anything together anymore unless it is a funeral. Even weddings, family members are left out because we have too big of a family. It's sad really.
I have always felt like I don't belong in my family. Even when my grandmother was still alive. The only place that I felt like I was wanted and loved the most was her house. She made me feel alive. She made me feel like I had a family. She made me feel special. She always did everything for everyone else even when she was getting so sick that she needed to be hospitalized. She made a point that the Bingo group would have their snacks, right up until the day she died. A long time ago, I lost my blanket that she made. She made the most warm and amazing blankets I have ever had. They were made out of the material that footed pajamas are made from. A few years ago, while shopping at Catholic Charities, I found one and knew that it just had to be one of the ones that she made. When my uncle died, I felt comforted in my blanket knowing that he wasn't sick anymore or in pain. My blanket made me feel better. A blanket. Those are things that little kids use for comfort. Somehow though, wrapped up in that blanket, I felt like my Grammy and my Uncle were wrapping their arms around me. These past few weeks, I have gone to bed with my my blanket wrapped on top of me. When I turn over in bed to go to sleep, I feel their warmth and smile.
While their physical bodies have died and their souls have been sent for when Jesus returns to this earth, I still feel their warmth and fell their love. They had faith in me. They made me feel happy. They shared stories and tidbits about their lives, which made me feel a little better about mine. I'm so thankful that I had them in my life. Sitting on the sidelines of the family, I see how much people try to be part of a family. Why does it have to be so hard? I guess I'll never know. I hope my children don't feel that way. I hope that they feel that we love them tremendously no matter what decisions they make in their life. Who are we to judge them, when it is God who judges them in the end.
We have guided our children through their lives so far. One of our children is now 20 and in college, one 18 and heading to college in the fall. Our baby is 16 and will be a Junior in high school. She has started a new job today. They are moving mountains. They are going places. They have our full support. If they make mistakes or walk off the trek they were supposed to be on in life, we can help steer them back. But we won't belittle them or shame them or make them feel like they don't belong in our family.
Over the weekend, we celebrated my mom's 60th birthday. It was a surprise party. And for once in her life, she didn't know anything about it. It was a lot of fun. I'm glad I went.
So this is what has been happening in our area of life. We still have an uber amount of snow. I just wish it would go away.
Off to make supper. Have a fabulous day!
Sunday, October 8, 2017
Today marks the first year of our new marriage. The year has been amazing. I’m so thankful that God has provided me with not only my best friend but my actual soul mate. I always knew. I never doubted. I knew he would come back to me. I’m so thankful to be with my love.
Happy anniversary my love!
Monday, August 7, 2017
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